MANY MILLENNIA AGO...
DAKSHINAPATHA
On the left bank of river Gowthami, in Dandakaranya, sits a person in meditation. Trying to control his rage, he sees glimpses of an event that scarred his heart. With the force of a falling cascade, a tear emerges from his left eye. He wants the teardrop to wash away the weight of his heart. But does that happen so easily? The teardrop falls on his lap, quickly getting absorbed by his royal robe. He feels the rushing tear through the fabric while his heart keeps rushing through the layers of his past.
“JUSTICE WINS. Maybe not instantly, but inevitably.” This line rings through his ears while more teardrops keep falling from his eyes. He saw his army running for life, his friend dying in his arms, and the darkness came slowly, like a woman walking forward — NisaSathi, the Lady Darkness — swallowing the setting sun as it slid behind the twin ridges cradling the Gowthami’s flow, ridges that, seen from above, traced the very parting she drew through her hair.
Unable to find peace with his eyes closed, he slowly opens his eyes. In front of him is a Sivalinga, whose majesty can make devotees fall to their knees instantly. A few months ago, Sage Agasthya installed that Sivalinga and worshipped it. “AGASTHYA... the guru of Pandyan kings.” Thoughts keep rushing again. “We should have listened to Sage Agasthya. All of this turmoil could have been avoided...” His father’s voice, filled with regret, echoes in his head. He closes his ears hard. But he is sinking in the thoughts filling his head. He wants to shout as loudly as he can. But he does not, fearing that his anguish might escape before he takes revenge. He lowers his head in helplessness, his hands falling involuntarily, as if he has completely lost his control over anything, perhaps everything.
“Glory to Justice, my Prince.” A familiar voice pulls his attention. He looks back swiftly, as if he was waiting for someone to come and talk. “Surya,” he says, “what brings you here?” “The King wants you to come immediately,” the soldier speaks as softly as he can. “And what purpose is this immediate meeting?” asks the Prince. “A messenger came from the Kingdom of Mithila. It’s a marriage invitation,” says Surya.
The Prince enters the palace hall. Giant sculptures depicting war and valour stand on both sides of the way. He remembers how as a child, he admired them. He wanted to be one of them. Courageous and Victorious. He wanted his head to be held high just like those statues. But as he passes them now, he feels the weight of a mountain on his head. Neither can he raise his head, nor his voice. This is not due to external dissent. The people love him and he loves his people. The problem is he can’t love himself enough anymore. He needs an internal revival. And that seems to be far away somewhere.
“I need you to go to Mithila—” the King says, “—on my behalf. King Seeradhvaja sent an invitation welcoming us to his daughter’s marriage.”
What the Prince wished not to hear, he has now heard. “Father, you know that...” He tries to say something.
“Yes, I know—” the king interrupts, “—and that is why I want you to go. Your sister is going to get married to the Prince of Ayodhya. You must start immediately.”
And the Prince starts the journey reluctantly. If everything were normal, he would be the happiest person on earth to hear about his sister’s marriage. He would be running as fast as he could to be there at the wedding even before the rituals began. But something is different about him now. He fears his dullness might affect the happy mood of other invitees at the wedding. He has always been like that — a loner in sadness, and the warmest presence in any gathering in happiness. He hopes the marriage will change his mood a little.
Mithila is not new to him. He spent most of his childhood there. In most crucial times, he was there to support the city and King Seeradhvaja. Passing through the city walls, he remembers the battles he fought for Mithila. He was a hero then. His heart filled with pride, his head held high with dignity. He was just like one of those sculptures he used to admire. But now... NOW... he does not want to think about that here anymore. He is here for the wedding, and until his return journey, he thinks, he should keep a smile on his face.
With these thoughts in mind, the Prince travels through the forest surrounding the city wall. A distant cry catches his attention. It seems someone is in trouble nearby. The Prince goes around, looking. He is now able to hear it much more clearly. A girl is crying, and someone is shouting angrily. “How dare you imitate us, you stupid girl! I said not to follow me and not to imitate my recitation, you fool!” As the Prince moves further, he sees a person in ascetic attire, threatening a little girl with a whip. The girl looks no older than her early teens.
“Stop!” shouts the Prince in anger. The ascetic turns around. “Why are you trying to beat that girl mercilessly?” he asks. “And what business is that of yours? Go away,” the ascetic replies recklessly. “This girl tried to imitate our penance. She listened to the Vedas silently while we were reciting and tried repeating them. She must be punished.” He moves forward to beat the girl again. The Prince, unable to tolerate it any further, slaps the ascetic across the face. The man is shocked. “How dare you raise a hand on an ascetic. Here, have this.” The ascetic beats the Prince with his whip. The Prince does not try to stop him. Instead, he wants to be beaten even more, hoping the physical pain might make him forget his emotional pain for a while. As the ascetic keeps beating him, the girl keeps weeping in terror. Suddenly, someone catches the edge of the whip from behind. The Prince turns to see that person.
With a golden glow on his face, he shines like the Sun. His looks are as fierce as a lion’s, his eyes as attractive as the petals of a lotus. His body is like a mountain, whose strength can win over the mighty Poulastya. His face is divine. His presence is refreshing. He is spectacular. The Prince is spellbound. That person is of the same age as him, yet the Prince feels like a little star beside a glowing full moon. Although seeing him for the first time, the Prince feels so much attached to that person.
“Who are you?” the ascetic asks. The Prince can hear the fear in his voice.
“RAMA, of AYODHYA,” that person replies.
Hearing that name, something shifts in the Prince’s heart. He looks again at the person before him and sees more than a man. He looks like the embodiment of all scriptures. For the first time, the Prince thinks he is seeing the Supreme Power in human form. How good it would be, if time paused. How good it would be if the moment turned eternal. He looks like an ocean of great depth, in which all worries get drowned. He is like a cloud, upon whose arrival the peacocks dance in joy. He is like lightning, whose shine will blind the enemies.
The ascetic loses his grip and the whip falls. “My Lord... Prince Rama...” he searches for words. “What was the girl’s mistake? Why do you want to punish her?” asks Rama calmly. His calmness is like the silence of the sea before the cyclone. “My Lord! This girl tried to recite the Veda mantras without our knowledge, without approval or permission.” The ascetic searches for words to justify his inappropriate action. “Is her recitation erroneous? Were the swaras wrong? Or is she of unclean dressing or surroundings?” Rama’s question surprises him. He does not expect this.
“No, not exactly. But without permission...” he mumbles. Then Rama cuts sharply, “Whose permission? Yours? Are you her guru? I do not think so. Are you the caretaker of the Vedas? The protector of Religion? Who announced your name for passing judgments and punishing people? I never heard of you.” The ascetic shivers now, but his ego is still unbent. “Rama—” he says, “she is a girl. A girl or a woman cannot recite the Vedas, especially without Upanayana.”
“Are you living in the Stone Age? Where are you from? I don’t see the broad-mindedness of sages in you. You are neither a sage with a good heart nor a seer with a sound mind. Are you not aware of Ghosha, Apala, Maitreyi, and Lopamudra, who were not only Vedic scholars but Mantra Drashtas — seers? The knowledge of the Vedas is for everyone. It does not exist just for you and me. Neither the sharpness of the sword nor the decoration of its sheath brings results in war. It is the ability to wield the sword that brings victory in battle. If the sword is in the hands of a skilled person, it brings victory. If it is in the hands of a compassionate person, it brings happiness. Compassion is more valued than skill. Similarly, neither the sacred thread nor the Upanayana brings the worthiness of the Vedas’ knowledge. It is compassion and righteousness. You lack in both.”
The Prince watches Rama with great amazement while Rama continues, “Neither is woman inferior to man, nor man superior to any other being in this world. The diversity of nature should be its boon, not its burden. A real scholar sees everything as equal. A real scholar is above partiality and discrimination. Fighting in the name of caste and religion is outright foolishness, and the nation will pay the price for the agendas of a few. Even though I feel all are equal, I have more respect for that girl than you.”
“Rama—” the ascetic replies, his voice filled with jealousy, “—how can you compare her with me? She belongs to a lower caste, unworthy of the Vedas by her lowly birth.” These words make Rama’s eyes turn red like blood. “If another word comes from your mouth, I will cut out your tongue,” Rama’s voice sounds like thunder. “Your mere presence disappoints me. I am trained by the great Visvamithra. He was born into a Kshatriya family but became a Brahmarshi through penance and effort. Our Kula Guru is the great Vasishta, born to Urvasi and married to Arundhathi. Greatness comes from thoughts and actions, not merely from birth. People like you are responsible for the downfall of human nature and ethical standards. This kingdom belongs to Seeradhvaja, and he alone reserves the right to pass judgment and punish. That is why I am letting you go, even though you are a criminal in my eyes. Get out, and never dare come before me again with your wicked heart.”
Hearing Rama’s words, the ascetic leaves, cursing and vowing revenge. Rama lifts the little girl to her feet slowly, wipes her tears, and caresses her cheek. She stops crying and gives a small smile. Then she looks at the Prince, who was beaten for her. Rama looks at the Prince’s shoulder. It bleeds lightly. But the Prince does not seem to notice it. He is still looking at Rama in awe. He feels neither physical pain nor emotional pain. Neither his heart nor his thoughts wander. He stands still, like a statue, his eyes fixed on Rama.
“Won’t you introduce yourself to us?” Rama asks.
The Prince replies, “CHITRARATHA, of ANDHRA.”
